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Jitters, journey, junior and journalism

August 16, 2012

In the final episode of the fourth season of “Gilmore Girls,” Lorelai, one of the title characters, opens her own inn and embarks on the next chapter of her life. It’s a funny episode, an emotional episode and an important episode for all the characters. It’s my favorite episode of my favorite show, and I like to watch it before I embark on something new in my own life, like graduating, going off to college, starting my study abroad or beginning my sophomore year. Just a little tradition I have – a tradition I just continued an hour ago.

Tomorrow, I am moving back to Lawrence, and Monday, I will begin my sophomore year of college. I remember last year, I was freaking out all over the place about the most trivial of details; after all, everything was brand new. This year, I’m calmer and just as excited, but I still have the typical jitters that come with beginnings. Last year was my fresh start, and this year will be a continuation of my remarkable college experience. I’m looking forward to many things about this new year – including classes, activities, athletic events, bonding experiences and maintaining the friendships I’ve formed. I’m a year older, and, I think, a year wiser. As I begin my sophomore year, I begin it knowing a little bit more about what’s important in life and about how I want to live it. I have firmer goals and grand ideas, and I’m ready for this next step in my journey.

Speaking of next steps, today was my brother’s first day of his junior year of high school. Time flies. It’s weird to think that this is the year he starts taking AP tests and the ACT / SAT. It’s weirder to think that next year, Jacob is going to apply to colleges, choose a school and graduate high school. I mean, he’s my little brother. He’s the little brother I spent countless afternoons playing Harry Potter legos with. He’s the little brother I used to play outside with every day after elementary school. He’s the little brother with whom I fight and bicker, but he’s also the little brother who I will always love, care about, be protective of and be there for. And even though we may not say it, I know it’s reciprocated.

As summer winds down, I’ve been trying to spend a lot of time with Jacob. We’ve watched movies and television shows in the afternoons and taken funny pictures and bonded. During the weekends, my whole family has been together, watching the Olympics or Boy Meets World and just enjoying each other’s presence. Because as much as I don’t like to think about it, I know days and moments like these will begin to occur less frequently as I continue to grow up. But I don’t want to talk about that.

The other thing I’ve been doing is writing, as usual. I believe I have made it clear on this blog that I hope to be a journalist, love journalism, etc. And this week, I realized that even more. This week, I’ve been writing something resembling a journalism feature story about my friend, just for kicks. I just solidified how much adrenaline and, well, joy I get when I’m creating something. I believe one of the best feelings in the world is creating or writing something of which one can be proud. It’s one thing to get an article published in a newspaper, but I have found, so far anyway, that an even better feeling is the production of the article. The work that goes into it, every step of it, is hard and sometimes takes me out of my comfort zone, but it’s worth it.

And now, it’s time for me to focus on the present and making the present really shine.

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